(19:57 / Tuesday, May 08, 2007)
The Night Was Young.
[ I've been praying, and I'm sure the others have been doing the same. I know you will be as lively as you were before, once this is all over. Furthurmore, it isnt worth it to let this thing get you down, right? ]
I feel distorted today. Everything seems to be going on the wrong track.
To mark off a GREAT (hemhem) day, I woke up late! Like, WHOOOOAW. Because my sister only needed to wake up at 8am so the aircon wasnt switched off so everytime i got woken up i'd just think im dreaming. Until my mother came and grabbed my arm and starting shaking me like crazy (familiar scene with the chinese tutor, eek). And then i sat up and continued sleeping. And i think she kind of gave up so she went out of the room.
And i DONT KNOW what got over me - so i decided to WAKE UP, and at that unearthly hour of the day, it didnt occur to me that i was sleeping on the HIGHER deck of a DOUBLE DECKER (wow, smart). So i stood up (my ceiling isnt exactly very high) and i knocked my head and i fell back down on to the bed and back to sleep! Whoaw. This never happened before. The third time my mother came back i swear she was close to being in fits.
For the first period (PE!), we had 2.4km run. Then i was overflowing with perspiration. Really, trust me, MY CASE is different from a normal person's. And when i stood up and looked at the patch i left on the
track(not easy okay!), i went to Angeline, pointed at it and said, 'BEAT THAT!'. Okay anyway that wasnt the point. I grew 2cm from the beginning of the year (not a big difference) and i didnt put on weight, so i guess its good.
Anyway, i didnt pay an inch of attention to any of my teachers today. I was either doing something else during their lesson, not concentrating, or pretending to concentrate (i just look at them talk and daydream).
And then during Band she made me play Bflat and C over and over and over again because i shift my fingers while playing (in front of her, that is). But then when she was testing other people i figured it out and wanted to ask her let me play again in case she starts thinking i DONT practise and THREATENS to change me from my section all over again. But i still decided against it in case my improvement from this week to the next isnt too big. Then she will say i didnt practise again >:(
I'm feeling weird.
I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway